Goals met goals set, unfulfilled without any progress or gain

Financials goals not met, material goals set and met. The combination has left me broke yet fulfilled I kept a commitment to myself, to receive an international shipment of my household goods. There are still steps I must take to complete the process. My endless stumbling and bumbling around here, and escaping elsewhere almost put that plan in jeopardy, thus broke. A let down after the fact was losing my wallet and cancelling my credit card. Yet that is a wake up call and a blessing in disguise. The wake up call is I need to settle down, and if I make a mistake no one will help me. The blessing in disguise is that without my credit card, I can't spend more money than I have even though I'm broke.

I must travel abroad to process customs. I invited my family but that seems to be opportunistic on my spouses behalf. Always eager to take advantage of something that someone can do for her. The pressure is still on, and I want it to stop. The trip is meant to process customs, which even she can't help me with, but taking advantage of it for the opportunities sake. And now planning to reform our condominium. Again, what is the end game for stabilizing our home. Will I get any more leeway in regards to privacy and usage of the entire home? I doubt it. A lot of effort and a lot to spend, yet also a lot of feeling continually used and no love, respect or any way out. Goals met goals set, feeling extremely unfulfilled lacking any real progress or gain.