Relationships - Take3

Michael Lutin

June 2012

To be happy and prosperous, use Feng Shui measures on the place you are living in. That draws positive energy and life (sometimes relatives) to your home. What an irony, though. Once you become prosperous you're too successful to stay home to enjoy it. It interferes with the agoraphobia of Pisceans who want to affect society but then be left alone. 

Relationships - Take2

Metropolis Tokyo

New people and events come into your life this week. The lunar eclipse on Monday intensifies the Venus eclipse of the Sun. Cosmically-attuned as you are, anything could happen. With this in mind, spend time focusing on what feels most comfortable for you. Visualize your fulfilling future now. Be open to a love that breaks all the rules. Most of all, be kind to yourself. Your life is about to change dramatically.

Relationships

Michael Lutin

Thursday 31 may

We are moving between two eclipses now. 

This is the beginning of a major turning point in life.

Starting now and through the next three to four months, it will likely be unsettled and awkward.

This is a rite of passage and when it's over all you will be left with is how you handled the relationships you have gotten yourself into.

(wonder what this means)

A woman scorned

There is something wrong here. I'm worried that I upset the balance in the universe, specifically a person's view of the universe. I've been under surveillance, and speaking frankly with her I see a side of her that has been under wraps forever. An emotionally unstable and insecure person. Now she is scorned, vicious and irrational. And self centered and narcissistic as ever. Her mood swings are like a chemical imbalance. Self preservation is what it all really amounts to. How does it feel to be used my entire life? Ask me in September. 

Almost there

I've been making strides in reaching my financial, personal and ideal goals. It looks like July will be sound. Even now I'm stable enough to plan my mid-term goals with confidence. The love life in my life is satisfying and real. I often worry and challenge any assumptions on my end, but on her end she reassures me which means I'm the one with issues. My issues are the result of doubt and guilt regarding my situation. But I honestly can't be thankful enough regarding all of this.

Roadblocks and Soul Searching

Small light at the end of the tunnel. Major roadblocks and soul searching to go with it. Confusion, endless thoughts of where she is and what I should do about it. While fretting about the future of my beautiful girls.

Summer solstice?

For all my angst and effort, my bad habits remain, my nemesis spouse is persistent, and my hope remains alive and inspirational. She is my new ray of light, but one I don't want to see dim or disappear. Summer solstice chance for an escape, a re-evolution? My recent efforts regarding the countdown to results got really great results as far as my physical condition is concerned. I'm in as good a shape as I was when I was 25, 20 years ago. My mentality and career are normally great tracks. But my finances are on edge, actually in real jeopardy that everyone will notice. It won't be until late spring that I recover. But ''m confident that my girl will keep me happy and alive through this. Plus ohanami and spring in general.

Day 40 and 39

40 was Friday and got some good time in. But after that, ruined my Friday, Saturday and perhaps early spring. I met her on Sunday and it was really nice, and why I couldn't wait and risked it all left me depressed. So much so skipped work Monday. Today Tuesday day 39, quite anxious about the near future. That and Whitney's passing has been quite unsettling. She picks me up, I need to keep my head up.

Day 45 - 41

I got day 45 (Thu) in. Skipped work and gym Friday. Friday evening I hung out with the big guy at Mishima and Baobab, I think. Went home early to make sure I was energetic for my Saturday movie date with Nori. My bicycle was broken and couldn't find the time to take it to the bicycle shop. I left it locked next to Marui. I got on the train, took my bag with change of drawers just in case, headphones, but no iPad. So a lot of weight for nothing, so I put it in a locker. We saw tower heist and walker around Roppongi Hills freezing without a plan. Nori finally suggested Kichijoji which was ok, but wasn't sure what to do or how. We got off the train and she grabbed my arm, asking if that was ok. Sure. But ducked into the Peppermint Cafe as a safe landing. As usual the guys were happy to see me. And she was pleased by that. Then my bro called and said they were at Mishima. We finished dinner around 9:00pm and headed over. She met the guys and was as giddy as I was nervous. This led to Baobab as a group and finally Cheeky just three of us, meeting the owner. I had to peel here out of the place, especially since the big guy was acting jealous and like he wanted to intercept. Nice she could withstand all of that and stick by me. And everyone was thrilled to meet her. Ducked into our place and rested well past dawn. That night she said extremely happy and pleased. Me too.

44 Mon weight training. 43 Tue aerobic and walked to Shibuya to meet her BFF. Both from Aomori, but how did they meet. Harley bikers from their youthful day. My stomach sank, but mostly because thoughts of envy to the adventure of all that. Her BFF's husband was in the same unit as I was in Misawa and even though he wasn't there I would guess we would hit it off. However the combined knowledge of Nori's past would unsettle me, but for once I'm thankful I'm last up instead of one of those along the way.

42 Wed hung at Mishima and Baobad. 41 Thu difficult to get up and out of the house. Very late to the office, but brought my gym gear. My stomach and lower back fat is disappearing. I miss her already and can't wait to see her again. I'll try take the pressure off and stop by Hooters this evening.

Day 53-46

Day 53 Jan 18 I went after partying all night and missing work too. Was on call but didn't get any, but I made sure I went out again. Day 52 stayed home again but made sure I went by the JR. Day 51 I went again and met Tom to go to Hooters. We went to a dance club which was kind of empty but nice. At the end I met someone really nice but made sure I made the last train since I was on call. Day 50 Friday I went back to follow up with my new friend. Well there was an unofficial day 49 for Saturday. Left my gear at the gym and had to pick it up feeling great.

I only went Mon 48 and met her again on Thursday with no affect, but really nice. Kept it simple and skipped Friday, Sat, Mon. Tue 47 and Wed 46 (today), back at it feeling strong even though I'm behind schedule.