Transition

What a whirlwind.

From Yokohama, to Mitaka, to Inokashira Park, to Inokashira, back to Mitaka, to Boston. 

Screwed up by her, neglected, starved, rejected, evacuated. Stalked, walked, begged, starved, drank.

Rejected by my own, insulted, tolerated, evacuated.

Rejected by the localjpgov, begged, evacuated, totalled.

Evacuated, repatriated, assimilated, starved.

Accepted, by family, coops, friends, home. Sigh

Wolf Pack

20 years ago... same angst. Rise above all this.

Go Figure

Took too long to figure this out. Now that's me.

One month alienated, and my girlfriend M.I.A.

She likes it this way. Open this cage, this bird is going to fly free.

Deserted

Feeling like I'm on a desert island. The most stranded feeling I've ever had in my life. Living with my girlfriend who likes the idea I'm her hostage. Leading me on more than ever, owning me like I'm the fool in this relationship (which I am per my most recent tarot card reading). She's been mostly absent, and me stuck in her neighborhood, feeling like I'm stranded on a desert island. No contact with my friends, alienated from community. She asks why can't I be happy to be alone. Pretty sad time in my life, chance I will learn from this with deep certainty. Get back on my own feet and don't let a woman ever bring me down again.

Metropolis Feb 6 - 13

Too good to be true. Too bad too...

"You can feel good about what you're doing. You've tried and tried, putting your heart and soul into something very important. It's not quite time to feel total steadiness, but know the tide has turned in your favor. Use your quiet radar to pulse the latest signals. To say things are in flux is an understatement. Your courage leads the way, but your heart is the command center: Follow what you know to be true, even in the face of deception. Neptune, your ruler, handles both divine love and ultra duplicity. The resources you need are there when you stay on the path of truth, which, by the way, is changing every moment."

Lucid Dream

Archived my letters, threw away the envelopes. Watch an old home movie. Called my dad. Ate red chicken curry at midnight and had a lucid dream. Still in the process of throwing out clutter and old sentimental things that no one but I would care for.