Phew

Test results negative. Step one complete.
Step two, a real physical. I got the details just need to schedule.
Step 3, settle my taxes.
Step 4, settle my debt.

Fear angst wait

Made the trip to visit. Can't imagine the result of the test, can only fear it. Hope that a week from now I'll be treated well. Like having a baby and knowing if it will be a boy or a girl. The difference is that in this will learn how long will live or soon die. And is love forever lost, or on the horizon with a lot more confidence.

Hope comes alive

Will take courage. Step by step. First one this Thursday, second the following Thursday. Positive to reconcile. Please be well for now...