Pray Happy Properous New Year

Time to redirect my energy into a more fulfilling life. Not an empty financial one. However it may be quite material, superficial and risky. But without that I'll continue to troll the streets at night as prey for the fallen. Changes on the social scene means nothing will go back to what it was and it will be a miracle if much any relationships outlast this. Lately I'm more worried about my family in the U.S. more than I am for myself, ridiculously so. To pass into the past beyond memory promotes a future present. sign

Wing and a prayer

Well, I'm grounded. Three cheers for stupid. That damn card. Ran it up and exhausted my play money for the next couple of months. I will be out of the picture for the winter. I wonder how I'll fair. I think I can focus on some reading. Or cleaning that room getting rid of things and organizing what little remaining in my life. The amount of money wasted was worth going on a trip somewhere or a nice purchase. Fleeting fun not forever frenzy. Selfish inconsiderate short sighted damage. Hell to pay.

Company Party

Will go to an unofficial company party tonight. It will be a bit angst driven since my wife will join me. The last time I went with someone was my ex-girlfriend which was a major scandal. It is taking a lot of courage to show up with her, and I imagine she'll be the center of attention. It may be a bit ridiculous on my behalf, or should I say better half. It will be nice for her to meet many of the people, and show up together in public, even though we never show up in private. Who knows, maybe it will spur some good karma that I need to make dig myself out of this hole.

This autumn, my finances have gone to hell, no fault but my own. Tomorrow I will know by how much.